You know in this battle, there are so many things that will stick in my head forever. The day we found out and Dr. Koontz said. " I am not going to lie this is serious, as serious as it gets." That night calling my sister Ashley and telling here that Keagen has cancer and she said" tell me everything". I wont forget yesterday when I got back to lunch and asked the doctor if he was doing better and he motioned his hand in a downward motion and said, " He crashed, this time it was life threatning." I remember the night that he went into cardiac arrest in Reedsburg, the day he stopped breathing and I ran into the hall like i was crazy. I will remember how much my heart hurt when I was away from my other children for weeks on end. No matter what the outcome is in the longrun I will remember these things, they will bring my heartbeat up when i think about them.

But I will always remember the better things also, Keagen walking back and forth to the toyroom to get all the balls he could in his room. The way he was after surgery at home, a super happy boy i had never seen before. I will always remember how strong he has been through all of this, how little it accually affected him and how I drew my strength from a little boy that no fears and fought this cancer with no boundries or weakness. I will always remember rocking him to sleep after a chemo when he feels so yucky wants nothing more than his mommy. I will remember how much this little two year old boy taught me in the time that we spent fighting this and how much stronger he became because of it.

This experience to this point has litterally been hell. The thought of even loosing him brings me to almost panic, my chest tightens up and I cannot breath. I know at the end of this journey that gods plan for Keagen will be fofilled, and I know that Keagen has taught us all very valuable lessons. My little boy has taught me more in the past 7 months than I have learned my whole life. Live strong Mighty Keagen I love you more than life.

Laura koch ( mighty Keagens proud and tired mom)